A break-I see GREY

Things were coming and going too fast. I couldn't even breathe sometimes. Last week, I quit Little Bean, then I did MIS assignment question 3( the elaborations) and my part for question 2. I also went Kumon on Monday to replace my time. On Friday, had MIS test so studied till late night on Thursday, after Law tutorials, I went home for wedding. So tiring. I was a bit blur. Then today, had tax test at 2:30pm. I really want a break!!!

Mr. Red is fooling me again. I'm damn sad yesterday. (gotta skip this part, it's quite private) Each time Mr. Red don't visit me, both of us sure will go into a dark parade. I also want a break for this. I really hate those kind of feelings that always bother us. If want to say I don't love him, it's not true if say i love him very much??(i'm not so sure already as sometimes I just felt I lost something that I will never get in my life again- can't be explained) Sad. I want a break. Will we break?( Will feel sad and regret, but is it the correct things to do?) All i can see is GREY! Everything in GREY!!