When No One Understands

for the past few months, i have tried my very best to overcome my so called anxiety which i'm not sure is it really anxiety or some other thing. Fine, i had succeeded in recovering. My life at least back to normal. however, during sem break recently, i went back hometown. i was quite stress with their attitudes, and the stress and hatred grew deeper. I lied to come back early. i made it everything as i want. but sad to say, once im back in the big city, the feeling that i hate came to visit me again. when i tell my bf, he ask me not to think so much. when i tel my sister, she said i think too much too. when i tel my mum, she even scolded me( i knew she was worried). family and bf have their own point and they will never understand mine cz they have not been through this kind of feeling. so i told my frens, i dunno if they talk bad about me at the back but for time being they comforted me, but i know well, it i continue to be like this they will only think i'm ridiculous and i might end up friendless. i feel more pain when people just dun understand that this is not wat i wanna be and i didn't ask for it..