it's been quite some time

it's been a long time i have not been writing..
life have been tough recently..
many of my thoughts remained as thoughts, no action taken to make it reality..
market out there is quite bad

flipping through facebook can be depressive for me where i will keep wondering when will my day come, or will my day even going to come? when can i address you as hubby? we gone through quite a lot but maybe it's really not the time yet? or am i not worth of receiving your love forever?

many uncertainties make me feel more insecure living in this world.. i really home to get myself a home as soon.. but will it happen in near future?