relationship of love

in my last post, i mentioned that we have splitted..
im officially single now! at least for the past 6 months to a year, i just want to be single..

however there is this one guy in my life who gives me lots of happiness, his stare, his care, his actions.. yes, he seldom or maybe i could say he said 'i love you' for not more than 10x.. i know he is not ready.. but once he said in our own world, im his. i simply felt that he is not prepared to be in a relationship officially yet but he is afraid to lose me.

we went gateaway together and it simply feels so good. i hope i will be officially his one day.. but for now i enjoy being his secret partner.. i want us to be together spontaneously and not by planned..

we both have a strict family and this has led us to have more challenges in future, he is rich, im poor; he is younger, im older; he is the only son, i believed higher expectation on him; he has initiatives to stabilized his career first, so do i; i have many exes and no longer v, but im his first; i have house wit my ex. i hope we can strive through all the challenges together regardless how tough it could be.

i dont need your money, material can never fulfill my expectation for my other half. whatever your action now is something i really need-care, support & unconditional love.

i told you today, please continue to let me love you.. please do not make me fed up..

my definition of fed up is when the same thing that actually make me feel pain and i need you to stop it immediately but you didn't want to stop it which in fact hurt me consistantly.. i wont give up easily.. i hope you also have same thoughts.

a good relationship is worth waiting and i hope we battle all the way to our own happiness.

baby, i love you!